Black Iris
2002-06-23
1:39 p.m.
Being aware of ones self and being totally honest about ones good points and bad ones ( to oneself ) can be very healing . I know I have many bad points . I am shy , I don't trust easy , I'm overly suspicious of people , and sometimes I do have the tendency to do the exact opposite of what I should !
But I have good points too ! I am intelligent with a keen sixth sense , when something doesn't feel right i'm usually first to notice and warn the others . I am also good at abstract thinking . My brain works a bit different from the others and sometimes I confuse myself because I have a tendency to jump ahead of myself , my actions can't keep up with my brain , but if I slow down I do great . Some might call me cold and calculating but that isn't accurate . I'm not cold actually i'm overly emotional but I have lots of control over those emotions . Therefore few people will ever see me upset because I don't allow myself that luxury , it doesn't feel safe . When I'm emotional and don't squelch it I miss things . And do stupid things or think idiotic thoughts , such as thinking everyone was better off without me .
But i'm learning to appreciate me for who I am . And I count too !
Music: Iron Maiden , Cross Eyed Mary
Mood: Reflective
I am dead.
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